Its just that once they treat her for something it causes other problems. Her amputation site looks good...but that's about all that is positive at the moment.
My screams for today are....
I'm down...depressed, bummed...pissed off at hospitals and doctors. Tired of trying to find people who give a crap enough to help care for my three while I go and visit my mother. Now that she is further away it will be even harder. I hate repeating myself to family and friends OVER and OVER again. Hate that people who haven't spoken with her in 30 years think now is the time to fly in and make their peace. I hate that in the back of my mind I think my husband really hopes that I make the choice to take her off the vent just so she will die and not live with us any longer and I'll not have to care for her. I hate the fact that she can't talk to me and tell me what she wants. I hate the fact that my mom can't hug me and tell me its okay.
I want my mommy....
((((())))) Many prayers girl. I know the last thing you want to do is talk on the phone but please know I am here no matter the time of day or night. I'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteOh, honey, I am so, so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with both you and your Mom. HUGE HUGS!!
ReplyDelete((((Kendra)))) I am so sorry you are going through this. I really do understand where you are at right now. I really do!! I am praying for your mama, for your peace, and for your family. I don't believe John would be thinking that, but I understand how you could think that.
ReplyDeleteThis is a very hard spot to be in and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy! I pray that she pulls through all of this and gets to rejoin you at home. Seeing a parent like this is horrible no matter what age they are or you are, its not something you can prepare for!! (()) Know that I am thinking about you!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry your mom is sick. I am hoping you stay strong and find that inner spirit to keep you going. I will send my good thoughts for you and your mom and family.
ReplyDeleteI've been praying for you since I read the news of your mom. I'm so sorry to hear it looks bleak. Just know someone in the desert south west cares!!
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I just wanted to let you know that you, your mom and the rest of your family are constantly in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry that you are having to go through this and feel so alone, worried, depressed and all of the other emotions that go along with a situation like this. I have been in your situation and I know the rollercoaster ride of emotions. Just know that you DO have lots of friends far and wide that are praying and thinking of you...you WILL get through this. Hang in there sweetie! (((((()))))
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